When I was a kid, my momma used to say I could sleep through a freight train screaming on a track next to me. I slept sound. Like a rock. Even in college, with all of the "goings on" in the dorm around me, I slept plumb through the night and missed most of those shenanigans. That was probably a good thing!
Fast forward a few years, and the scratching of my newborn daughter's tiny fingernails on the sheet woke me. And she was in the next room! I remember talking with my grandmother and telling her I was so worried I wouldn't hear my baby cry at night. She told me not to fret, God gives you just what you need to be a Momma. Love how the Lord did that for me. Oops, I digress. Back to the sleep story.
It's not that my heart is anxious, or my mind is running laps, this girl just doesn't sleep well many nights. It's ok, because I've learned to make good use of that time. I could just scroll through social media feeds, or mindlessly flip channels on the tv. We all know that doesn't help you fall back to sleep and all of that drama could surely cause anyone's heart to be unnerved.
Instead, I have lingering, heart to heart talks with Abba Daddy. Now that my eyes aren't quite what they used to be, I bought a large print Bible. It's the Message version which is perfect for conversing. The large print is perfect for my sleepy eyes.
My heart begins to ramble over my day, my kids, my babies, my friends, my love, my neighbors, my country...well you get the idea. As my heart pours out to my Father, He speaks straight back to me through His Word and the promptings of Holy Spirit.
So many times, He brings people to mind and we will talk about them and I'll read something that I know is just for that person. I'll often text them the next day just to say "I'm praying for you". It amazes me...although it shouldn't...that they needed those prayers at exactly that time.
Those ponderings, in the middle of the night, while I'm wrapped up in my quilt, His Word open before me, and my heart mulling over things with Him. Ahhh...I wouldn't trade them for the world.
"I bless the Lord who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me."
Psalm 16:7 ESV